heyya.. its been a heaps long time since i updated and i dont think i told you guys about my new unit..
ARMOUR INFANTY TROOP @ Kranji Camp 2.
so yea.. the first wk there was a real culture shock.. and i was going crazy constantly thinking that i would have to do this and be in this camp/vocation for 1 yr and 9 mths ><.. sigh... but thank God after the first wk the constant thoughts of ORD are gone... but i still think about it though. i dont feel like blogging.. hahaha but anyways. a few of us straight from BMTC were posted to AI TROOPER to fill in the for the lack of numbers.. and the soliders there were already 2nd year soliders and about 2 yrs older than me ><... its tough being put in there when they already have their own clicks and its just like being a new student in a new school when the grade has been together for years already... i really should have been nicer to the new guys at school coz its really not easy ><>You should judge a book by its cover. my platoon is pretty nice.. so yay. and i sleep on the side of the gangsters so hahaha they are all pretty cool. ohh and one room has 24 ppl.... thats like heaps of people. hahaha thank God there was a "honeymoon" period for us to settle in.. and the comapny has just gone to india for 3 wks soo its very quiet, peaceful and much more flexible.. yay. but after they come back it will be field camps, late nights, heavy signal sets. tough training.. ><
i am starting to understand why i was posted here to be "man" instead of a commander. some things i wont understand but maybe i wouldnt have made a good commander so yea. maybe blame my young age and lack of experience and confidence. although its disappointing that i cant be a leader and have men under me who i would have loved to guild and teach.. the decision has been had i have to find the joy it in.
its really disheartening that most NSF men think that just because they are in the army that their lives have stopped and they only look forward to when it all ends... also they have the mindset that when it all ends,they can just forget all about it.. i feel most of them fail to see the opportunities that the army can provide.. the life long friendships that can be built... the training.. maybe thats the way the army is.. tough and unflexible.. but its just sad.. okay i probably arnt making sense coz i am bad at expressing stuff. but like for example, a sergeant in my comapny who is going to ORD in may.... his mindset is just do it and finish it.. forget it when its over.. maybe he is just saying it and will definatly miss it in the future...(coz you never know how much you love something until you loose it...so true about BMT...) but its like he is taking away nothing from these 2yrs..... okay sigh i am not making any sense to myself too but i just dont want to finish this 2 years feeling like i havent learnt or gain anything... new experiences.. esp friendships.. i dont want to go back to aussie feeling lonely and like i havent made any true lasting friendships... in the war movies the army friends are like always the closest and strongest but yea.. dunno if it will be true... sigh okay this is just stupid rambling that made sense in my head an doesnt need to make sense to you guys.. so yea. anyways.
yep thats about it.. just rambling on about stuff. blame it on my lack of expressions. i miss my bmt friends soo much and really jealous of the things that they are doing... bslc... OCS!!!!! navy solider!!!! SIGH... i really need to learn to be happy with what i got and not compare... yep okay stupid post.. sorry for wasting your time hehehehe but its just nice to write things down so yea.
btw... U4S4 keep 1st of may the public holiday free.. section outing. i wantta go bowling or lazer tag or movies... trying to plan soo will tell you guys more!!!! take care guys and everyone at aussieland. I MISSS YOUUU GUYS HEAPSS. i miss seeing you guys in person... and its soo different just talking on msn...... ><><>
but yea.. me going crazy hahaha cya =)
